day 75 - mind

its quite a good possibility that i'll just be alone forever. trying to come to terms with that. trying to come to terms with a lot of things about myself i guess. life is about to change and i have to make some choices but we'll see. my track record of things working out is still none. looked back at some of my old posts from a year ago or so and i still feel the same. nothing is working out, and i hate everything. i almost feel like everything bores me and nothing is worth it at all. whatever, i guess its just me, right?