Recently I've felt as if life has he potential to be really simple and yet it never is. I also don't understand my utter lack of motivation. I feel like a lot of problems in my life get solved by getting a job. But I don't want a job. I think maybe it's because I'm subconsciously afraid. I feel like getting a job is being forced to grow up. I dunno, everything just seems so trivial nowadays. Like, my goal in life is almost just to get through it. I have this super strong desire to have a girlfriend. I have no idea why. I guess my hormones are telling me to fuck otherwise the human race will end or something like that. But I just have this desire to have a girl who is able to just support me. I guess I'm just looking for this support that I've never had. Everybody is just so superficial and only concerned with themselves nowadays. Anyway, I'm not really sure why I'm writing this, I was just compelled to write today. Writing is just something I have to do every once in a while, thus the blog. I'm going to see if I can't take my computer in to a shop tomorrow and get a free diagnosis with the slight hope that they find a simple fix and do it for free or something. I really wish people still read this.
Hungrily,
Marcus <3
Jacob read your blog post :D
ReplyDeleteGod, I'm glad that I'm not the only one who would like a significant other. I think college will have more to offer in that department...
And..working..gross. I'm pretty sure that working will solve my problems too, but it's just so meh. It's dumb that being "productive" and "independent" requires you to waste 30+ hours a week doing a repetitive task that is (probably) contributing very little to society. How the fuck is flipping burgers for the fat asses that eat at McDonalds improving anything and why does everyone have to do it (or some other insignificant equivalent) to be considered productive?
Life's a bitch.